They call it swirling. STOP HATING

Okay so I am pretty sure by looking at my picture that everyone knows that I am mixed with black and white. I am very light skinned and I have embraced that in a major way, I actually think I am pretty hot for a mixed chick lol. BUT My whole point in writing this is I definitely have a problem with people who are against interracial dating. Especially when people have absolutely no idea about what they are talking about. I always go to this media takeout website just to get a fix of entertainment for the day. But it definitely seems like they have a problem with people who are different races and date each other. They call it swirling...I hate that shit. It really erks my nerves because it is like people talk about how they wish that racism was over and how people are always downing African Americans when they are so quick to do it to their own people. Every celebrity who is African American and is pictured with a light skinned woman or man is immediately put on blast about it. First of all I want media takeout to know yes it is entertainment and you get paid to do it but who really cares? If someone likes a person who is not the same race or even if they are the same race but light skinned like myself, it shouldn't matter. It just hurts my heart to see that people are so hateful. Being light skinned and African American has been hard because people instantly assume you are white, they talk about your skin color, look at you funny if you dress a certain way, talk a certain way or listen to a certain type of music. It's like dude get the fuck over it, but one thing I can say is my mom taught me how to embrace my skin color because if GOD wanted me to be darker, he would have done so. I love myself, I love my skin color, I love who I am. Even when I got my hair braided the African women, immediately started laughing and talking in their language and shook their heads at me as if I were some kind of freak of nature. But all of these things help a person grow. So when people use the term swirling, I wont take it to heart anymore, it just means people are immature. Grow the fuck up because diversity is what makes the world go around! STICK A FOR IN ER' SHE'S DONE!

Pretty...Socially Awkward.

When I started this blog I immediately knew everything I wrote would have some kind of entertainment, to make my readers want to laugh out loud in their cubicle at work. I am not sure if I have done so, part of me cares...part of me...just doesn't. I titled this blog: Pretty Socially Awkward and while you may think the title gives it all away, I feel it is something I should touch on because it effects me every single day of my life. I just started growing into my look, just started wearing high heels, wearing make up, kind of revealing clothes, and more bold when it comes to some things. But one thing that has not changed is the fact that I am socially awkward. Which is why I called it pretty socially awkward. I feel that I am good looking, dress fairly nice, I have a nice car. I should be outgoing right? WRONG. I have always wanted friends, girls in particular only because it is nice to have girl talks and go out and not have to worry about drama or being out of place. Going on 21, I still keep a wall up, I over think everything, and I always feel like I will never fit in. Only because I always feel like I am going to say the wrong thing in front of people, I feel like people wont like me because I am quiet and don't dance much if I go to a club. I am not sure if I am this way because I moved quite a few times and did not have time to make any real friends or what. But every day of my life it hurts because I am always hoping for a text from a girl asking to hang out, a call because someone needs me to listen, or just because. People always ask "well do you have any friends?" or the famous line "you got any girl friends". The answer is always the same...NO. I think I'm pretty...but I am socially awkward. Like there have been days where I just cry because I go on facebook and see the girls who befriended me on there saying who they are kickin it with or how they went somewhere. Then I put this big ass wall up and think to myself "this person claimed we would hang, said I was cool, yet I never get invited to any of these places". For example, I was invited a couple of months ago to a club with two girls and I debated...tried to come up with reasons not to go but I ended up going with them. I was dressed a tad bit more conservative, which in some cases isn't cool, whereas these girls were confident with what they had on. The whole time they danced and grinded on guys to every sexual song that came on, I felt like a loser just standing in the club. I wanted to go to the bathroom and cry because I froze..for 4 hours I stood in the same place in the club just looking at my clock waiting to leave. The time went by slowly because I was paying attention. Anyway, the end result was I haven't heard form this girl since then. I haven't been invited anywhere because I am a kill joy. I mean it isn't like I wanna be a kill joy but I am not comfortable with myself sometimes and I get nervous. Like the whole world is judging me and I freak out. But one thing I can say is I am thankful I have my mom....she is my best friend. I can be myself around her, she wont judge me, and she is my road dog. She has always been there..so sometimes I feel like...well I don't need any friends because she is the best and the only one I need. I know I sound like a big baby but I know there are other people out there just like me who have a pretty face but freeze up when they get around people. I mean it even happens when I get around my boyfriend sometimes, I just don't know what to say or how to act because one wrong move or I do something wrong and he gets mad I feel like the worst person in the world. All in all...I'm kind of writing this to tell you that if you are socially awkward like me, don't be...get over it. Because you will just miss out and feel like how I feel, which isn't good. I hate to toot my own horn but I feel like I am too pretty to be friendless...and socially awkward. I want to get out of my shell and be more confident but I have no idea on where to start. Men use to come up to me all the time at my job trying to show interest and I would freeze up and be an asshole. I get nervous easily and it breaks my heart that I am almost 21 and I am still like this. So whomever is reading this, and you feel like I feel, get out of your shell. Don't let your problems get to you, don't let everything bother you like I do. Instead, go out, volunteer, go to the mall and strike up conversations. Do what you need to do to feel comfortable in a social setting. Because if you have big dreams like I have....being this way will not take you far.
PEACE N LUV.

Platonic Relationship discussion

 I am very sure every adult who reads this will know exactly what a platonic relationship is however, I know that the younger generation probably does not know what a platonic relationship is. The definition of a platonic relationship is: The tendency of women to develop close friendships with their male acquaintances, thereby pre-emptively eliminating any possibility of anything remotely romantic, the result of which is to remove the poor schmuck's heart and shred it. This is a definition I found on a website called urban dictionary, I picked this one in particular because it seemed entertaining enough for a younger person to understand. The big issue that always comes up between a guy and a girl who are friends is "can we be friends without any expectations? Without wanting to have sex?". Now, I am a woman, I have befriended guys who wanted more than a friendship but I was not into it.  In my opinion, I feel that platonic relationships are not possible. Now this is only my opinion, because I have met guys and I know the outcome. It is always the same. NO absolutely means NO. It doesn't mean yes in some kind of alternative reality...just NO. Which then forces me to be an asshole. Every guy I meet I tell them immediately I have a boyfriend, but that does not stop a man from pursuing what he wants, and no it is not a friendship because he thinks you are interesting, beautiful, or smart but because he wants that poonanni. Again this is just from my experience with men who I have met. Because even though he knows you don't want anything to do with him sexually, chasing the cat is a goal he will not give up on. In saying all of this, guys who do this, who want to be friends with women are just setting themselves up for drama. Now I am not saying this is all the guys fault because it is the girls fault also for portraying a sexy image, doin that walk that turns him on, saying those naughty things over text messages and joking around in a way that can lead to bad things. Women do these things because as Ryan Leslie said in his song Glory, "women play the victim so well, Joan Of Arc", it is like they know that they can get away with these things and make it seem like the guy is the one who started the whole thing. In the eyes of a mature woman and man maybe there is a possibility that a friendship can exist BUT in the back of one of their minds they have that secret feeling. The feeling that causes absolute trouble. Personally I do not enjoy men and women being friends if there in no understanding because the guy will be persistent and try to get some play.  I think oh no there will be no getting of the nana! I mean I guess it all depends on who is dealing with the situation.If ima have a friendship with a guy I AM GOING TO BE 100 AND TELL THEM WHAT THEY NEED TO KNOW AHEAD OF TIME. So ladies, consider a guys feelings...and guys...please do the same. PEACE N LUV!

Stop hatin! SHEEEESH!

So, I woke up this morning and did my daily "I gotta see what's new in the world", went on a gossip site, checked my facebook, twitter, and email. But I noticed one thing in particular, how people always hate on celebrities. It's like theses people wait all night to post the new gossip on celebrities, and it is always bad news nothing positive. Because the truth of the matter is (and no this does not include the whole world) people cant stand to see another person succeed. Where that sense of hate comes from I have no idea. One thing that caught my eye is how hard these people go in on Beyonce. Ever since she let Jay Z manager her, the whole world is against her. Okay I am not the biggest fan of her recent song "Girls", only because it is too euro like for me but people like it. However, they did a lil blog sayin how she is the poster kid for Miller Life beer. Sayin that she is sellin cheap beer because Jay Z is managing her. I mean the girl on the can KIND OF if you squint your eyes and cock your head to the left and right real fast 5 times, looks like Beyonce. But like Jay Z is a business man, he was probably the best choice for Beyonce, and figured he can help her. I'm not gonna say the girl looks like Beyonce because it is just a computer generated image. If it is her, BIG UPS to ya Bey, if not people should be glad that someone that looks like Bey is featured on the can. After all, it is advertising, they want people to buy their product and there is nothing wrong with putting a pretty woman on their product to make a sell.

Yes this picture is from mediatakeout. I am not claiming this picture or any rights to it. BUT YOU GUYS ARE HATERS!!!!!!

FASHION!!!!!!!!

LADIES,

I know all of you are like "ooh girl it is summer time I gotta get my sexy back and get me some cute shoes" I feel you on that foreal. I don't know about you but I am living the life of a bargain shopper. I look for good prices and if it is not cheap then I guess I don't need it right? RIGHT! MY MOMMA TAUGHT ME THAT! LOL So I found this website called www.shoeglamm.com this is a website that offers inexpensive yet comfortable and sexy heels, flip flops, wedges, purses and jewelery!!!!! I know you are probably like "tss please girlfriend there is no place that sells comfortable heels for cheap, only payless! and those are barely cute". Well I am talking $19.99 and up! Yes it is so true, no you are not dyslexic! LMAO I CRACK MYSELF UP!

YES I AM SO GETTING THIS SHOE SO YOU BETTER NOT BITE HOWEVER, IT IS ONLY $24.50. That is a very good buy in my eyes. So check the site out and let me know what you think. Don't be afraid to comment. Even if you disagree, I cant loke up on you because your on the other side of the screen and I am not a wizard. ENJOY!!!!!

Idk...a poem maybe?

My heart stops when I see the pure beauty of the world Like that song my mom use to sing to me Im just the average girl, wishing on a romance, wishing on a star Only to realize that star is hella far Out of my reach, only finding peace Within myself. I touch myself and wonder if Im real, Real enough to be here I think. So I pinch myself and come back to reality to find that the pure beauty of the world was my imagination when I closed my eyes to escape my pain, the pain of a migraine. I use to wonder what my life would be like if it were perfect, to find that my like was perfectly imperfect so I got a tattoo, that thing we do..yeah us young people. Dreamin on a dream, that dream seemed mean as in bad yeah that good bad so I made it come true I call it Sweet Toots. My heart stops when I see the pure beauty of the world, simple things like bee's...take my breath away.

Life is not a fairytale but It's okay to be a hopeless romantic

Okay,  So this is my first blog and it is the wee hours of the morning and I am pretty sure a lot of people are asleep but hey...it's whatever. So this blog is titled :Life is not a fairytale but It's okay to be a hopeless romantic. I am about to mind fuck all of you teenage girls who think that life is a fairytale and that everything is all peachy keen when it really is not! America has put out this idea that Love is just like the movies, books, and songs that these entertainers put out. When it really is not like that, life is real, it is not reality TV, this is not Jersey Shore or The Notebook, it is exactly what you make of it. Life is what you write it out to be. I am pretty sure you are in a relationship, if you aren't then you want to be in one right? The type of relationship where you see your man all the time all day everyday and send him lovey dovey texts of sweet nothings right? Well when it comes to real life, sometimes things can't be like that. Why your asking? Because your fuckin smothering him! (If you cant take the heat, get out of the kitchen.) Trust me, I did this but it took for my mom to tell me just to leave it alone. Another point I want to hit is this, being CODEPENDENCY. What does that mean, well let me school you and take you to Webster so he can tell you. CO-DE-PEN-DEN-CY noun:

: a psychological condition or a relationship in which a person is controlled or manipulated by another who is affected with a pathological condition (as an addiction to alcohol or heroin); broadly : dependence on the needs of or control by another. YOU DON'T NEED A MAN TO BE HAPPY it is just like you don't need a cigarette! Or you don't need to go shopping. Being in a relationship is not a necessity, it is more like apart of life if you love that person. I see on facebook how girls go from being in a relationship to single more than they probably change their panties! It is craziness I tell ya! I had to learn this the hard way, don't put all of your energy into a relationship and don't lose yourself. Because that hole that you are digging will just get deeper and it will be hard to get out when you bump your head and realize your messing up. Now life is not like movies...it really isn't. You may want it to be but the sooner you realize that...the sooner you will be STRONG! That way you can endure anything. BUT there is absolutely nothing wrong with being a hopeless romantic. Now I know your probably like "oh this girl is a hypocrite!" I'm not it is just it took me long to realize it is cool to be a hopeless romantic but not be dumb about shit. For you girls who have no idea what being a hopeless romantic let me explain. This person is in love with love. They believe in fairy tales and love. They're not to be confused as stalkers or creepy because that's not what a hopeless romantic is. All hopeless romantics are idealists,the sentimental dreamers,the imaginative and the fanciful when you get to know them. They often live with rose colored glasses on. They make love look like an art form with all the romantic things they do for their special someone. So be smart ladies! And...WRAP IT UP! AND SLOW DOWN! AND.....MAZAL TOV!!!!!!! LMAO